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Re: Depression v2

Post by Nori » Tue Jan 08, 2019 2:57 pm

キッスランド wrote:
Tue Jan 08, 2019 2:22 pm
What this world thought me: Don't be so happy or else they'll bite your emotions. I understood there's no payback for being good. Not helping anyone because no one will help you back. Never unbosom to anyone, because they'll make fun of them in the fights. I understood that sins are turning normal. Morals can turn into materials in a few moments. In a city with negative effects, secrets ways, non-humans, full of danger. Good people are turned into bad ones, Going along with death of humanity. I was river, Now I'm a dam. I was day, Now I'm night. I was good and didn't get accepted.. So I turned bad. We hit each other like domino's. You hit me, I hit them, they hit others, others to others and going along. You think I'm in affection? I answer my question as no. They saw me destroying myself but they kept ignoring and going on alcohol shots. I feel like falling in a deep well. I wasn't so bad.. but I still remember I was waiting at coupon line, I saw a guy in a benz. He was sitting, an ugly giant, money was raining from him. That moment I felt like it's my death day, I realized the girl next to him is my girlfriend.. She saw me but I was stranger to her, With the t-shirt I've bought for her. Giving all that love and this is the reward. I prayed for god to have you, I draw loans to spend to for you, I.. thought you're an angel. But I know what I did was wrong. Now you go sleep with him, I'll sleep with pills. Barely in the industry and I got trust issues.. everyone have two sides even the single still has two sides. But you know I wasn't all good too.. I did bad to alot of stuff, Money, Girl, Career. But trust me my purpose wasn't bad at all. But Imma let them think in peace, Maybe one day they forgive me. Being good is the person who always gets hurt but doesn't fall. They shoot me down but I won't fall. Nice persons are very unique and worthy to have, Like diamonds. Good persons give you perfect feelings. Like drinking a cool glass of water in a burning day. Like waking up at 6am and realising it's Saturday. Like mom's warm hugs in cold air. Like a soft warm fire in brisk winter air with a soft jazz music. Sweet smell of bakeries in winter... Anyways! not going so far., This is what I learnt from the world.
You're on the good path.

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Re: Depression v2

Post by Stucc » Tue Jan 08, 2019 7:20 pm

VaudeVillian wrote:
Tue Jan 08, 2019 5:29 am
Stucc wrote:
Tue Jan 08, 2019 1:57 am
VaudeVillian wrote:
Mon Jan 07, 2019 10:17 pm
Fuck I miss her so much
Yall broke up bro? Shit mayne.
She left me for another dude because she said that she couldn't handle my emotions anymore
Hold on bruh, loads of bitches out there as the person above said.

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Re: Depression v2

Post by kayleesi » Thu Jan 10, 2019 12:27 pm

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Tue Dec 11, 2018 11:57 am
Get off ur high horse, the world doesnt circle around u. Appreciate what u got not what u want
^ is not wrong.
I am somebody who is extremely lucky. I have a very comfortable living situation, friends, family, money, pets and pretty much everything I could ever want without ever having to work that hard for it or to keep it. However I did not considered myself lucky when I was younger and started having extended episodes of depression.

My divorced parents had a rocky marriage when I was very young and I did not feel like I could talk to them. I felt like it was somehow my fault. The only person I could really talk to at the time was my brother and we were suddenly separated. I've tried to be happy with what I got until I was hurt physically and emotionally by somebody shortly afterward in my community who still walks around freely living a consequence free life. That was when I gave up the notion that life possibility has something good in store for me.

After being hurt a few times, I became suicidal, pessimistic, manipulative, vindictive and self sabotaging little fucker (these traits also made me REALLY fun at parties.) I have dabbled with drugs and alcohols. I took insane risks and behaved inconsiderately toward others. Sex was a selective decisive trading token to manipulate things to further my agenda rather than intimacy fulfillment. I could charm anybody into doing what I want slowly but eventually. Happiness boils down to being in control of what is going to happen to me.

By the time I realized I need to change it was already too late. I have sabotaged my engagement with the only person who would genuinely love me when I was my worst and I am still regretting my decisions. I still tried to change for the better. I can still remember the afternoons when I would just sit and think about why I am the way I am.

After a lot of thinking and a few YouTube videos I have come to realized I react to anxiety in unhealthy ways. The idea of being made happy by the things that are out of my control was absurd to me on the subconscious level. The older I am becoming the better I get at understanding and fixing my batshit craziness. I can't take back the fact that I suddenly call off the engagement with the love of my life or somehow right my wrong actions. I can try to be happy though. At the end of the day I can either try to improve my situation which seem hopeless at times or I can give a shot at being better from the present to the future.

I hope my perspective helped somebody here but who am I kidding it's LSRP. Full of people with short attention spans. who am i kidding you guys wouldnt even read the tdlr lol


TLDR for 99% of u guys who didn't read: either find out what is wrong with u and fix it or start taking chances that someone / something out there can make u happy. BECAUSE YOU CANT AFFORD NOT TO.

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Re: Depression v2

Post by Dan beaver » Sat Jan 12, 2019 4:03 am

papabiceps wrote:
Tue Jan 08, 2019 12:03 pm
Getting ignored by the person i love and am really into, how sad is this :(
Damn the feeeelings kill me
Don't rely on others for your happiness.
“If it is not right do not do it; if it is not true do not say it.”
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Re: Depression v2

Post by TheCed » Sat Jan 12, 2019 7:19 pm

start thinkin about yourselves cause nobody else will, stop chasin hoes too, also go outside spend some time with family and friends, start doing sports, start takin care of yourselves, get a fresh haircut, brush your teeth and start showerin, put on cologne, take care of your skin, get a job or w/e, make money and the rest will come

stop expectin shit from other ppl cause y'all are unique and amazing

i love y'all

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Re: Depression v2

Post by Sean » Sat Jan 12, 2019 7:26 pm

TheCed wrote:
Sat Jan 12, 2019 7:19 pm
start thinkin about yourselves cause nobody else will, stop chasin hoes too, also go outside spend some time with family and friends, start doing sports, start takin care of yourselves, get a fresh haircut, brush your teeth and start showerin, put on cologne, take care of your skin, get a job or w/e, make money and the rest will come

stop expectin shit from other ppl cause y'all are unique and amazing

i love y'all
Wise words from the wise man. Respect to you, brother!
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Re: Depression v2

Post by TheCed » Sat Jan 12, 2019 7:28 pm

Dibby wrote:
Sat Jan 12, 2019 7:26 pm
TheCed wrote:
Sat Jan 12, 2019 7:19 pm
start thinkin about yourselves cause nobody else will, stop chasin hoes too, also go outside spend some time with family and friends, start doing sports, start takin care of yourselves, get a fresh haircut, brush your teeth and start showerin, put on cologne, take care of your skin, get a job or w/e, make money and the rest will come

stop expectin shit from other ppl cause y'all are unique and amazing

i love y'all
Wise words from the wise man. Respect to you, brother!

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Re: Depression v2

Post by VaudeVillian » Sat Jan 12, 2019 8:03 pm

Hope everyone gets their dick sucked and has a great day

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Re: Depression v2

Post by TheCed » Sat Jan 12, 2019 8:15 pm

VaudeVillian wrote:
Sat Jan 12, 2019 8:03 pm
Hope everyone gets their dick sucked and has a great day
that's the attitude

get blowjobs y'all

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Re: Depression v2

Post by Pablo_Noriega » Sat Jan 12, 2019 9:16 pm

VaudeVillian wrote:
Sat Jan 12, 2019 8:03 pm
Hope everyone gets their dick sucked and has a great day
8) Hope so too.
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Re: Depression v2

Post by paym4n » Sun Jan 13, 2019 10:44 pm

Do whatever the f**k you truly enjoy and care about.

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Re: Depression v2

Post by Hollow Hershman » Mon Jan 14, 2019 2:35 am

VaudeVillian wrote:
Mon Jan 07, 2019 10:17 pm
Fuck I miss her so much
Not tryna get at you or anything, but do you really believe you’re depressed in life?

Look at life in the bigger picture, rn there’s wars around the world in which people live in the absolute worst of the worst type of situations. Look at Syria, where people are being slaughtered in the numbers or even Yemen, where people are eating leaves off of trees to survive. I’m sure you have a computer on which you can entertain yourself, food in the fridge, heating or AC when it’s hot or cold, clothes to wear and have basic necessities such as a toilet. I understand life can be tough sometimes but is life really tough when you have basic priorities and enough freedom to play whatever games you want?
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Re: Depression v2

Post by KashØut » Sun Jan 20, 2019 9:57 am

undefined. wrote:
Tue Jan 01, 2019 4:16 am
I'm just unproductive and feel like I don't know what to do and where to go with my life as of right now just like I did half a year ago. I don't know what to do really - I spend hours on hours on hours just doing nothing to get my mind off the thoughts I got. It feels like all the bad thoughts and things I got rid of before just got back, and this time the anxiety's been pretty hard on me. I feel like I can't really put in trust in anyone nor do I communicate that much because I just think I can't. I don't know what to do since it's been going like that in a loophole for the past month and so far it's just getting worse.

One note: I noticed that just talking to people and socializing used to do the trick before, just go out and talk. I wouldn't recommend it (first one) but drinking and going to parties/hanging out at first didn't really do the trick for me until like a month of actively doing so. Just do anything that'll get you off bad thoughts and for that period of time you should be good.
You took the words from my mouth of what I feel like/going through right now.
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Re: Depression v2

Post by scoooby snacks » Mon Jan 21, 2019 9:39 am

Whenever I go through phases of being really depressed I play lsrp a lot to escape lol.
I've had ocd my whole life n only found out recently, I'm open to talk about ocd intruisive thoughts and stuff

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Re: Depression v2

Post by Stucc » Mon Jan 21, 2019 9:32 pm

VaudeVillian wrote:
Tue Jan 16, 2018 7:05 am
I don't know why I feel so shitty

I got a girlfriend I love, friends and am doing good in college. But life still feels empty and boring
Do you have a hobby bro? Are u close with your fam? Are you sure they are your real friends?

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